For a few weeks, Brian Copeland’s e-mail e-newsletter had gone lacking.
Followers of the Bay Space playwright, comic and radio host who regarded ahead to his “Copie’s Alternative” leisure updates contacted him to see what was up.
On Sunday afternoon he replied: “I’m within the midst of a very unhealthy bout of melancholy. The worst in a number of years, to be trustworthy.”
Copeland’s battles with melancholy have been broadly chronicled by Copeland himself. He has written a play and a guide, “The Ready Interval,” subtitled “Laughter within the Darkness,” concerning the subject, and the present is commonly staged at no cost in order that others grappling with melancholy might even see it and search assist.
“The demon, as I name it, is a nasty beast that I’ve to be eternally vigilant about not falling prey to,” Copeland wrote. “Folks typically ask how I’m able to keep so busy and to perform so many issues concurrently. It’s easy. The busier I’m and the sooner I transfer, the tougher it’s for the demon to seize maintain of me and pull me into that darkish place.”
The San Leandro resident detailed how the melancholy has affected him this month: “I don’t have the power to get off the bed plenty of the time. My legs are rubber bands, typically unable to assist me. I’ve no urge for food. Sleep comes solely with pharmaceutical support. Focus is such that I can’t learn a guide and retain it. I discover myself studying the identical sentence again and again with little to no comprehension of what I’ve simply seen. I’ve tried to maintain up on the multitude of writing initiatives, I’m doing for stage and tv, however I’m blocked. It’s taken me hours to compose this temporary notice to you.”
Copeland stated he was prompted to put in writing by his want to assist others (a number of folks don’t have assist methods, he says) and by the information final week concerning the suicide of Brody Stevens, a fellow comedian.
His e-newsletter confession comes about three weeks after San Jose Sharks broadcaster Jamie Baker went public with a tweet about his personal struggles with melancholy.
Over the past 10 days, Copeland has managed to get off the bed lengthy sufficient to do half a dozen performances of “Not A Real Black Man,” his present about rising up black in then-largely-white San Leandro. It’s the longest-running one-man play in San Francisco historical past.
“I don’t need to disappoint folks, so one thing offers me the power to stand up, dress, drag my ass to the theater and placed on a present,” he wrote. “I suppose I’m pulling it off. They’ve been type sufficient to present me standing ovations most nights. I smile. I signal copies of my books. I get within the automotive, head dwelling and climb again into mattress.”
He implored others “battling this scourge” to achieve out, to “TELL SOMEBODY.”
He informed them he shares their emotions of despair however is aware of there’s assist and hope. “It’s darkish proper now and it’s so laborious to see the sunshine, however I do know that ultimately it’s coming. It all the time does. I simply have to hold on. And so do you.
“Now, I’ve obtained to search out it in me to leap within the bathe. I’ve a matinee to do.”
He signed off with this: “Attempting laborious to maintain the religion. — Copie.”
DETAILS: Copeland is scheduled to carry out “The Ready Interval” on March three and 17 at The Marsh in San Francisco. Tickets are free, on a primary come, first served foundation, due to a GoFundMe marketing campaign. “Not A Real Black Man” is being staged on Saturdays by March 30 on the Actors’ Group Studio in Burbank and periodically at theaters within the East Bay and San Francisco. www.briancopeland.com